{"id":57189,"date":"2017-09-08T08:48:46","date_gmt":"2017-09-08T13:48:46","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/wp.enchantedhome.com\/blog\/?p=57189"},"modified":"2017-09-08T08:59:00","modified_gmt":"2017-09-08T13:59:00","slug":"hardest-post-ever-write","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/wp.enchantedhome.com\/blog\/2017\/09\/08\/hardest-post-ever-write\/","title":{"rendered":"The hardest post I have ever had to write….."},"content":{"rendered":"

Hi friends. I am heartbroken to tell you that my beloved Teddy\u00a0 passed away on 9\/6\/17. Words cannot properly describe the gamut of emotions I am going through. A mix of extreme sadness, aching to lie down next to him as I have done every night and morning gently massaging his achy limbs, sometimes singing to him and just an immense emptiness in my heart and home,\u00a0 seeing his little corner bare without his precious smiling face, even when he was in severe pain.<\/p>\n

He kept a strong front and tried\u00a0 very bravely to keep on going\u00a0 just to make me happy and that was the essence of Teddy.<\/p>\n

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He had developed severe arthritis in the last year not unlike most goldens and lucky for him that was all he has ever had to deal with. No illness, cancer or serious issues that often plague older dogs. He was aside from that an incredibly healthy dog and truly beautiful.<\/p>\n

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Sadly the arthritis in recent months really deteriorated fast and the last month has been brutal. I, being an eternal optimistic and someone who is very resilient did not want to face what was happening though the vet, Dr. Denise of Jericho Animal Hospital, someone who is trusted as a friend and professional,\u00a0 started telling us a few months ago we would have to consider the unthinkable.<\/p>\n

Her exact words were “he moves your soul” and she had the same angst as I,\u00a0 watching him deteriorate,\u00a0 they loved him dearly (he has been there since he was 8 weeks old) so the entire staff have come to know and love Teddy like their own.<\/p>\n

And trust me we tried EVERY medication, every kind of therapy, aquatherapy, holistic therapy, acupuncture, you name it.<\/p>\n

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His quality of life had really gone downhill and he pretty much has not been able to walk the last few weeks. Despite all that, he still tried his darnest,\u00a0 his happy and cheery demeanor somehow allowed him to push through and carry on, until this last week. His only few minutes of joy were when he was indulging in a treat (lately very often) or feasting on an entire rotisserie chicken and yummy chicken fingers from a local restaurant (every day this past week)<\/p>\n

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\u00a0I would gently place him on a small rug and drag the rug with him on it by the door and open it so he could be as close as possible to the life outside he so wanted to be a part of and missed. He would sit there for hours watching and taking it all in. This, for a dog who loved nothing more than prowling and exploring outside, chasing the birds and butterflies, had to have been torturous for him and I cried every time I watched him doing this.<\/p>\n

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Two nights ago he was really suffering unlike what I had previously seen and it seemed different than before, he was panting very\u00a0 heavily and was in obvious distress. I knew something was wrong,\u00a0 this was different, and immediately called his dr. and they picked him up, upon getting to the vet he had fever of 105.9 which is considered to be potentially fatal.<\/p>\n

He was having a hard time breathing and did not seem at all comfortable.<\/p>\n

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Of course, with his being such a wonderful, irreplaceable\u00a0 companion to our entire family his whole life…the last thing I wanted to do was make him suffer just to please me. And these last few weeks that is what it came down to. I grappled with making a life changing decision but didn’t have it in my heart to do it yet I saw with each day he was worsening to the point where as of a few days ago he could not even heavily aided take more than a step.<\/p>\n

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So going back to that night 2 nights ago…he was not only in serious pain with a dangerously high fever but was in major distress.\u00a0 He was having a hard time breathing and did not seem at all comfortable. ……as the doctor did her best to work on him, that is when I knew,<\/em> it was almost like God came and whispered in my ear that it was his time, that I needed to say goodbye and that God needed him up there in puppy heaven so he could get back to the important business of chasing birds and butterflies, burying bones and enjoying life as he used to.\u00a0 I needed to let him go in peace and with the dignity he so very much deserved.<\/p>\n

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He has given us almost 13 years of immeasurable happiness, companionship and entertainment. He has been a treasured friend to me and always a wonderful source of comfort even during some very difficult times, he was the one source of comfort I knew I could count on and did. Nothing could make me smile quite like seeing his beautiful face always waiting for me.<\/p>\n

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I knew it was time for him to leave us but not in spirit and that he was ready.\u00a0 So, literally in my arms he passed away looking so peaceful and his expression said “thank you for letting me go, I am ready and no longer suffering”.<\/p>\n

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The countless memories we have of Teddy and thankfully many many pictures and videos will help get us through this very difficult time. Seeing them makes me laugh, cry and smile all at once.<\/p>\n

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I have been moved for years over the unbelievable connection so many of you from near and far felt with Teddy and trust me, it never went unnoticed. He would get gifts and toys and paintings and works of art of him from people we have never met. That was the power of Teddy:)\u00a0 To know him was to really love him, he was a gentle giant, a big lump of sugar who was your best friend if you had a smile to share, a belly rub to give or a special treat in your hand.<\/p>\n

His gentle soul made everyone who\u00a0 knew him fall in love with him. So many of you mention him in your comments and emails, always asking about him and it always made me feel so proud to be his mom.\u00a0 I know how much he was loved and adored.<\/p>\n

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He was here with our family to share so many wonderful times, from birthdays and graduations, to moving into our new home to fun getaways\u00a0 and he was indeed our family mascot, he loved a party and don’t you know it- he always stole the show and was center of attention:)<\/p>\n

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Any pet owner knows the untold joy we experience when these pets come into our lives yet the unspeakable grief when they must leave. I wouldn’t trade the almost 13 years I had with Teddy for anything in the world. Not a day will go by that I will not keep his memory alive in one way or another.<\/p>\n

I will miss my best friend, trusty companion, sous chef, fellow snowbunny,\u00a0 Enchanted home and family mascot, “welcome home” buddy at the end of a day more than words could ever express. I know with his many fans, many of you will keep him in their thoughts and prayers and we will gladly take them.<\/p>\n

I love you Teddy and I know heaven is rejoicing having you up there as you have gone to the Rainbow Bridge. Your spirit will live on in our family and home forever.\u00a0 Rest in peace my beautiful boy.<\/h3>\n

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Thank you for stopping by. Most definitely the hardest (teariest) post I have ever had to compose myself to write. I will be taking off the next few days to mourn my beloved Teddy’s loss.<\/p>\n

Though I do not expect to magically get back to normal next week, I know life goes on and I will do my best in his honor to persevere and move forward as he so valiantly did in his last days. Thank you four your friendship, kindness and good will. Wishing everyone a wonderful day and weekend.<\/p>\n

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